writing here too much would just lead me to being more emotional and slacking in my work.
haiz... alot of things in my heart... but how many ppl are there that i can trust to let it out to them?
anyway.. these few days there were alot going in college...
either assignments, or social.... it was just very crazy..... *sigh*
i know i hurt some of your feelings by just being frank to you girls,
and i guess i m the only stupid one who is brave enough to let it out in your face and not secretly hiding it so that you all can like the 'fake me'... or maybe i m just not that type of person.
i guess i was just too silly to think that i can train you girls up... and maybe i was arrogant to think so..
maybe i should have do all the work by myself, and only let u girls present only.. or maybe i didn't know and understand your feelings well enough to manage this group...
do you think i feel better after sounding out yesterday....
my whole night.. i kept worry-ing did i said too much?? was i being fair or was i being arrogant?? was i being too over?? should i even do that as a friend??? how are they going to feel about me...
my whole night... i was thinking about your feelings....
i even think whether should i grab you girls out to grab some pizza and let you girls feel better..
but maybe it wud seem so fake like.. after i marah marah you girls.. then i pujuk pujuk you all balik... i just dont know.. how to handle this feeling... it better off i m not the leader bcoz it sucks to be one... especially when grouping with close frenz...
i m still wondering did i the right thing or not... or i should have just do all the work by myself.. then later on only teach you all what to present.. instead of intentionally hoping to train you girls up on how to understand n write out those reports... maybe it was just all wrong..
and maybe it just my fault.... if it is.. just let me know... and i will definitely apologize...and make it up to you girls
just now in facebook, i sighed.. i was surprised that you came and comment n tried to cheer me up... its was a "O-M-G" to me... wow.. you were more 'dai fong' then i imagine.. you changed.. and you proved to me.. you handle it well and you improved. i was surprised. super!! (you know who are you when you see this)
you girls.. just let me know... what you all want k? coz i maybe fierce when i m serious in handling work... but i m always ok n open to opinions and critism although i sometimes dun take it so well.. at least you girls sound out... i would know what to do.. n learn from you girls so that i can be a better person too... dun be afraid of me.. i wont eat you girls up ok？i want to be true frenz with you girls... and not just PLAYMATES... but if u want to just the the 'playmates' relationship with me... i dun mind at all =) when FUN times come.. we will always hang out. so JUST LET ME KNOW k? =)
ABOUT BUSINESS and LIFE LECTURE
(if you dun like this dun read it.. and really mean it.. DONT READ!!!!!!!!)
when i was 11years old....my elder brother was a PRO in basketball (to me..he is)
i fell in love with basketball too ever since then... when just a 141cm girl at tat time..
who is going to take me seriously in this sport??? a shorty vs basketball?? (are you kidding me)my legs were shorter than any other players.. my stamina was worst than other players.. my movement and reaction was slower than others...
i remember my brother telling :" if you adi realise you have shorter legs, run twice faster to keep up with those longer legs, if you know stamina and reaction is slower TRAIN twice harder than any other players just to keep up with them, but if you wanna be better any 1 of them, you must train yourself up 3 to 4 more times harder and more than any other players."
he was right, until now i still remember what he said.
Just in life, there is no 'free lunch' even there is.... how much luck do you want to rely on to get it?? even you have the luck?? how many others would have the same too?? and how are you going to fight it over with them or are you generous enough to SHARE it with' em??
thus, for me... i m not as rich as others, but in order to live the same kind of lifestyle to relax and enjoy, i m work twice time harder to earn that life style, but i know if i would want to live a even better life and enjoy even more than any others of the same age gap i m in.. i would have to be 3 or 4 or even more times hardworking and daring to do so.
everything might be just a dream for me now.. but i m sure i would achieved it.
i rmb those who laughed at me during basketball long ago b4 but after just 3years who is the one laughing back at you now.
so now this is my future and business... its not just a sport, but i know i can achieved it!
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