Depress moments

was feeeling very depress the other night.. felt like the whole world is going down to an end..
sms-ed lots of peeps... but most of them replied the next day...
it was still good at least they still reply. and i fel tthe support and the care..

or else i think i will be doing smoking and also drinking very very very often....
dun wan to be like tat.. but the only thing tat can make me feel less stress is drinking... coz at least when i m high and drunk.. i cant think of any of those nightmares... at least after tat few hours of highness i get to sleep soundly... eventhough i wud wake up with migrains... but at least its better than no sleeping at all.... =(
but i know myself.. i wont get into this type of shit.. coz of my self-restrictions and frenz i have around and family tat i care.. i know i wont be smoking or drinking.... but tats y.. its pain... coz.. i cant seem to find other ways to release all these stress...