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2010-12-18T09:20:00.000-08:00

ChurpChurp | Social Share » Check out what Berry you are today! (Preview)

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Hmm i really do not know how to use a BB.

and i always think that my fingers are too big and fat to press the buttons.

I wonder does all Black Berry Owners have tiny fingers or the buttons are just so sensitive and kind to ppl with fat and big fingers too..

haha =p

MOney money money money...

2010-07-27T07:56:00.000-07:00

why is money always an issue!!! :'(

when only can money not be an issue...

why is it always them them them them them...

i cant always jump right out of the situation to see what i should do..

i cant always make everybody happy..

i cant always tell myself to be strong.. :'(

all i can do now is think and think and think of how i can earn money..

i now its wrong to sound so despo so money...

but i feel like i m in a stage to not care about my image nor how ppl look at me..

as i only know that i need to money to settle everything..

then only everybody will be please and happy...

then only they can leave me alone for some peace and quiet..

i wanna take a break from all this..

i wan to rest.. :'(

why does it seem like.. there is no place without stress anymore.. why...

New chapter to awaits...

2010-06-21T20:26:00.000-07:00

I had just finish my final study sems..

now while i m having some 'rest/holiday' time, i m still searching for companies to intern.

I wonder why does it takes so long for the companies to reply. Hmm... haiz...am i just not good enough? The longer i wait, the more confidence is suck out of me...

Meanwhile, my family celebrated fathers day a week earlier and this is what i have done for my dear daddy!

Besides that i m more concentrade with my professional make up coarse,

these are a few Before and Afters...

really a big applause to all my models, its not EASY at all to be my model you know!

it takes guts, trust and a way lot of patiences. XOXO thanks so much models. ^^

Besides if any of you are interested to be my model (FOC) just reach me in this email

sinnloo_1990@hotmail.com

Besides being my model, if you would like me to make up for you, you can contact me tru Email too!! =) Price is still negotiable!

烦！

2010-04-18T12:00:00.000-07:00

有时当情绪低潮时，

真的只希望。。我想要出现在我面前的人，出现。

其他的。。。都希望他们闪一边。

我沉默。。可能代表我脑子里有事请想，

也可能代表。。我没有东西好讲。。

所以。。。请不要逼我说话。。。

我喜欢热闹。。因为喜欢看见大家被我逗得很开心。

可是有时。。开心果是需要‘放假’的。。连劳工都有‘劳动节’。。我怎么可能例外呢？？

所以。。偶尔我比较严肃。。比较静。。。就让我‘开心果’的工作好好休息。。。谢谢体谅

我友善。。不代表我每分每秒都那么大方。。

有些事。。是不能‘得寸进尺’的。。。‘佛都有火’更何况我这个‘凡人’

所以。。。请不要踩到我的头上来。。谢谢合作。

偶尔。。我会突然很孤僻。。。很喜欢一个人坐在一个角落。。

其实我真的没什么。。只是想让自己静下来。。

因为有时觉得角落很舒服。。。很安全。。

偶尔。。我说话语气会不好。。。大声点。。

也许那晚听歌听太大声。。耳鸣了。。。不好意识。。

或也许是为了。。让自己讲的句子添加‘情绪’才那样。。。不是故意要吓倒你们。。

机器总有失效的时候。。。人也不例外。。

偶尔。。我会莫名在掉掉眼泪。。因为。。记性好的我。。

很爱念旧。。好坏的回忆。。我都会这样。。因为知道。。时间不可能重来而遗憾地掉泪。。

所以。。。我不是在‘讨同情’。

可是我真的是个缺乏‘安全感’的孩子。。

所以我很爱‘拥抱’。。因为在‘拥抱里。。觉得没有人可以伤害到我’。。

同时也习惯‘发白日梦’。。因为真实世界里。。大家都太恐怖了。。。为什么不能像童话卡通那样的简单就好。。。

因为长期‘逃避’去面对世界是残酷的。。所以。。经常容易 ‘相信’ 及 ‘依赖’ 错人。。导致自己伤痕磊磊。。。可是过后也‘学习’了许多。。。

为了自己有‘安全感’。。。

因此常常带着一副密封的面具见人。。搞到自己有时差点‘窒息’。

加上背着日集夜累的包袱往前走。。。使得‘真正的笑容’都被压垮下来了。。

可是这就是人生。。我们只能尽全能跑向未来。。让能跌掉的东西。。统统跌掉。。

不然。。。永远停下脚步。。就永远只是让那些“有的没的”折磨到‘有完没完’。

Cheaper options for FOOD in JAYA ONE??

2010-04-11T04:58:00.000-07:00

hmm, due to my broke finance last month i could totally feel how hard it was to survive in jaya one

with all the costy lunch and car park.

and i do see other frenz of mine felt it too.

so...

starting next monday, i will offer a little cheaper options for everybody =)

hoping it does help a little =)

i will be selling some drinks and food (quick bites mostly)

HERE is the list of what i can offer to you guys ^^ :

RM1 per pack

Butter Bun RM1.00

Hotdog Bun RM1.50

Chic Floss Bun RM1.50

Sandwiches(Ham & Egg) RM2.00

Nasi Lemak RM1.50

Chee Cheong Fun(+ fish cake) RM3.00

For alternated days only :

Mee Siam RM1.50

Mee Siam + Egg RM2.00

You guys can grab this by letting me know

via IN person

via sms/phone call

or if its a big amount you want to eat that day..

you are always welcome to Pre-order 1 day in advance ^^

Operating Hours:

9am - 3pm

Monday to Thursday only

It would delighted to know if this could help you guys =)

i m not trying to expand this into a multimillion business.. thats why i didn't leave my contact here

as i m just trying to offer a little extra option for you guys k? =)

This was what i was pack with on march =)

2010-04-11T04:35:00.000-07:00

it was really a busy month last month.

alot of planning..

alot of work..

alot of chaos..

but yet alot of smiles and alot of love =)

1st we have jillian's surprise bday =p

then i have sculpture to rush

and it was also my brother's marriage registeration. not wedding yet =)

and oh ya.. i accomplish everything with my BROKE account (negatively direction of finance force.. still baring the pain for this month.. =( haiz )

play now? or play then?

2010-04-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

i have been avoiding this site for quite some days, as i had too much in my hand to cope with,

writing here too much would just lead me to being more emotional and slacking in my work.

haiz... alot of things in my heart... but how many ppl are there that i can trust to let it out to them?

anyway.. these few days there were alot going in college...

either assignments, or social.... it was just very crazy..... *sigh*

i know i hurt some of your feelings by just being frank to you girls,

and i guess i m the only stupid one who is brave enough to let it out in your face and not secretly hiding it so that you all can like the 'fake me'... or maybe i m just not that type of person.

i guess i was just too silly to think that i can train you girls up... and maybe i was arrogant to think so..

maybe i should have do all the work by myself, and only let u girls present only.. or maybe i didn't know and understand your feelings well enough to manage this group...

do you think i feel better after sounding out yesterday....

my whole night.. i kept worry-ing did i said too much?? was i being fair or was i being arrogant?? was i being too over?? should i even do that as a friend??? how are they going to feel about me...

my whole night... i was thinking about your feelings....

i even think whether should i grab you girls out to grab some pizza and let you girls feel better..

but maybe it wud seem so fake like.. after i marah marah you girls.. then i pujuk pujuk you all balik... i just dont know.. how to handle this feeling... it better off i m not the leader bcoz it sucks to be one... especially when grouping with close frenz...

i m still wondering did i the right thing or not... or i should have just do all the work by myself.. then later on only teach you all what to present.. instead of intentionally hoping to train you girls up on how to understand n write out those reports... maybe it was just all wrong..

and maybe it just my fault.... if it is.. just let me know... and i will definitely apologize...and make it up to you girls

just now in facebook, i sighed.. i was surprised that you came and comment n tried to cheer me up... its was a "O-M-G" to me... wow.. you were more 'dai fong' then i imagine.. you changed.. and you proved to me.. you handle it well and you improved. i was surprised. super!! (you know who are you when you see this)

you girls.. just let me know... what you all want k? coz i maybe fierce when i m serious in handling work... but i m always ok n open to opinions and critism although i sometimes dun take it so well.. at least you girls sound out... i would know what to do.. n learn from you girls so that i can be a better person too... dun be afraid of me.. i wont eat you girls up ok？i want to be true frenz with you girls... and not just PLAYMATES... but if u want to just the the 'playmates' relationship with me... i dun mind at all =) when FUN times come.. we will always hang out. so JUST LET ME KNOW k? =)

ABOUT BUSINESS and LIFE LECTURE

(if you dun like this dun read it.. and really mean it.. DONT READ!!!!!!!!)

when i was 11years old....my elder brother was a PRO in basketball (to me..he is)

i fell in love with basketball too ever since then... when just a 141cm girl at tat time..

who is going to take me seriously in this sport??? a shorty vs basketball?? (are you kidding me)my legs were shorter than any other players.. my stamina was worst than other players.. my movement and reaction was slower than others...

i remember my brother telling :" if you adi realise you have shorter legs, run twice faster to keep up with those longer legs, if you know stamina and reaction is slower TRAIN twice harder than any other players just to keep up with them, but if you wanna be better any 1 of them, you must train yourself up 3 to 4 more times harder and more than any other players."

he was right, until now i still remember what he said.

Just in life, there is no 'free lunch' even there is.... how much luck do you want to rely on to get it?? even you have the luck?? how many others would have the same too?? and how are you going to fight it over with them or are you generous enough to SHARE it with' em??

thus, for me... i m not as rich as others, but in order to live the same kind of lifestyle to relax and enjoy, i m work twice time harder to earn that life style, but i know if i would want to live a even better life and enjoy even more than any others of the same age gap i m in.. i would have to be 3 or 4 or even more times hardworking and daring to do so.

everything might be just a dream for me now.. but i m sure i would achieved it.

i rmb those who laughed at me during basketball long ago b4 but after just 3years who is the one laughing back at you now.

so now this is my future and business... its not just a sport, but i know i can achieved it!

"YOU"

2010-03-17T08:01:00.001-07:00

After a big busy week that just past, i finally had sometime to finish up some of my

unfinished missions:

1) clean up my messy bedroom

2) wash my dirty car

3) keeping up with my web design class assignment (still in the progress of doing)

4) had some "me" time to read a few pages of book, not any assignment related book, just a book for leissure (reading a few pages = reading a zillion books to me, i have a few mins to just focus in that few pages is truly GREAT for me) haha..

i m so glad that i could accomplish so many things in just this few weeks.

it is truly grateful to always be occupied and non-stop moving forward for more achievements.

i m thankful that god gave me the strength to keep me moving forward mentally from the insight of my soul and mind

*spending a few twist and swirl around the "world" i understand more, and god has taught me everything happens for a reason. & when god turns your world upside down, He just wants u to learn how to live right side up again.*

i m thankful that my parents both mom and dad gave me the greatest love to make sure i grown up healthy and perfectly (as in din kena kitnap, robbed, malnutrition, lack of love and etc)

*after spending a few months of teaching kids tuition and watching how my younger cousins grow up process.. HAHA.. i felt it was so DAM hard!!!!!!!!! to keep TROUBLE away from kids, my parents were able to keep all dangers and trouble away from the 3 of us, is really powerful! xD hehehe... for that i love them even more, looking at them grow old and some times get sick, makes my heartache but builts my motivation to be a better person even stronger because i wan to be able to love them and take care them back*

i m thankful for my siblings, for the typical fighting get still making up childhood memories which made some of the parts of me today. at least I M NORMAL and not like some others. xD

Even though its so happy that we had all grown up and do not have to share the same room with each other again, i kinda miss you both. As we spend lesser time with each other now =( especially you my brother! hmm maybe that's life.

I m thankful to all my cousins and relatives too. They too shaped me into who i m today, with those sweet memories in Tapah nor JB, or vacation all around msia. Those weekends of gathering, from masak masak to cycling to computer games to ps2 to shopping together now contribute to all my colourful years in this BIG family. We always would not let each other go down to the 'hell road' as we wud always pull each other back up to the right path and encourage each other til then end! hehe... i love you guys too =)

Besides that, this part is always the part i mention which is... My friends.

You all had been the most important part in my life as i m easily influenced by you guys more than anyone.

To those who hurt and look down on me once. i thank you for doing it as you made me stronger to face harder challenges and move through tougher obstacles in life. THE Pain you guys once pierce and stab through my body, made everything in my life now easier as NO PAIN NO GAIN, everything now seems much more easier as it just 'sap sap water' to me already after you all hurt me. Those experience and lessons i learn, shaped me into a smarter yet kinder person as i learn not be a worse person like you all.

To those who thinks i m just Plain Stupid and loves to take advantages from me. You taught me how to handle ppl like you every time you do it to me. Its just like a online game that both you and I continuously level up our power on how to defend and attack. You guys shape my thinking in crisis management and skills in jerks distinguishing. Its certainly a game as stressed up as dota, as challenging yet knowledgeable as SODUKU. Keep it UP ya, i will be prepare to learn as after every GAME OVER, I still get another chance to beat you again.

To those who had brought me knowledge and directed me into the right paths. I have all my respect for you as you taught me things that i would have overlooked. Such as the 2 guys that intro me into reading books. It really hard to get me to read books you know, macam paksa me jiak sai like tat.. but both of them so geng, now you know why i respect them so much.

The 1st one was "Mr Ice Lemon Tea" - you intro "Poor Daddy , Rich Daddy" to me which made me built my interest on how to manage time and finance. It lead me into the path of being more mature in this field than others from my age when i was just only 14.

The 2nd one is Mr Vanness Fan - you introduce me this author by the name of 戴晨志．Just the name of this author which is labelled across few dozen books taught me more than i could even digest nowadays.

of coz not only the both of them had a whole lot of respect from me, all of those around me including some i had even lost contact with, you all taught me valuable lessons in Life as i learn from you guys everyday, every hour and every moment. The way i talk, think, act, accomplish things is learnt from every one of your bits n parts behavior and actions. =)

To those friend who love me unconditionally and never left me alone.

You are the ones who picked me up when i m at the lowest of my sorrow.

You are the ones who set my head straight and hold my hands and walk along with me when i often get lost in life.

You are the ones who take notice of my careless behavior and nags me even though you know i would forget it eventually and still help me 'zap shao mei' even though i m so forgetful to say thank you.

You are the ones who let me bully you when my devil eager was UP but you just stood still.

You are the ones who pick up the things i dropped or left back and return it to me, example MY SMILE and Laughters. =)

You are the ones made my tears roll in between my eyes but i dare not to even shed even 1 single drop a tears as i know you wud be sad if you thought i was sad.

You are the ones that in my phone list which normally each lonesome night my fingers will flick across but dare not to hit the button "dial"

You are the ones that I would love to plan your birthdays for and vise versal.

You are the ones that is not my bfs but i would love to hug.

You are the ones who i will die for just for your safety just under the rank of "family" in my heart.

You are the ones that taught me nothing is too hard to walk through, if you were just by my side.

You are the ones that i would always remember what we been through even after so many years. Every SINGLE BIT including arguements and embrassing moments! teehee =p

You are the ones who i wished that i would die earlier becoz until now you never taught me how to handle the feelings of "leaving you forever" as you are the ones that never left me.

As i do not know and could not even bare to think of pain if i had lost anyone of you.

Thus, you are the one i would yell and threaten that if any one of you think of committing suicide, i would jump into hell just to pull you back up to earth to torture you to live with ME this devil forever!

You are the ones who slashes through my heart if i found out you are doing some SHIT to hurt yourself. (including family/cousins)

You are the ones that could not imagine how important by "just being Nicky Kong Sinn Loo" is for me.

Please help me safe our home T.T

2010-03-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

earth is our home and she is very very ill and she needs us the most now. please help me safe our home.

Big Bang - Make Love *

2010-02-24T08:51:00.000-08:00

I never knew I'd find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you
Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there
I always see you when I close my eyes, you're on my mind
So can't you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart
Forever you're my girl Forever be my world You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you and me
Forever you're my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go
Even through the hard times We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that I'm yours
And that your mine
That's how we got this far
Let's never be apart
Girl, you're my queen
I'm here for you
'Cuz you're my everything
You always make me feel like everyhing's gonna be alright
Wit the things you do, becuz it's you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart
Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one I'll ever need, my life is you & me Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
I'll never break your heart "no", so baby don't let go
uh? baby!
you know I'd walk them miles
climb mountains swith up styles
all I wanna do, is be with you
ain't no matter what, where and how
[right here and now] we can both get down [straight work it out] yeah
like that sound bump 'n grindin' perfect timin'
let's dine and both be proud yeah yeah yeah
gonna take you on a joyride today
me and you stay true never hesitate
to make love ? sho nuff
you're the only one I'm ever thinkin' of
just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
as we go through the motions damn it's great
to make love ? sho 'nuff we're gonna take it to the end and that's what's up
Chorus You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, that's where I will call home
So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more
Chorus I'm nothing without you I'm nothing without you girl

不是男朋友的男朋友 (forwarded)

2010-02-22T10:31:00.000-08:00

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

1st Chinese New Year in KL

2010-02-13T07:14:00.000-08:00

2010 Chinese New Year for me..

there is no more rush....

no Jamming in the highways...

no napping in the car til my saliva stain my pillow =p

no waking up with a bad hair look to look out the car window to see Tapah Road.

no the 3 hours smell of air con in my face....

no silly conversation and singing along the way back hometown...

no the smell of the rubber factory at the entrance of the village...

no stepping on sandy floor with chicken poop smell after i open the door.

no seeing the familiar body figure sitting on the cane chair waitting for us....

no seeing the smile on the wrinkled face to welcome us back to hometown..

absence of the sentence " =) FAN LEH JOR A?? " by 'ah ma'

absence of the very valueble moment which makes the feel and atmosphere of my Chinese new year... i miss Tapah Road n the times we spend during CNY there...

annoying noisy yet loveable cousins messying around with your hp..

checking your sms... gossiping about each other's love life or anything...

no more pillow fights on the beds... no more crying after loosing the fight..

no more throwing 'pop pop' to each other during the night too

absence of the long sentence of 'ah ma, dai bak, dai mou, yi bak, yi mou, baba, mama, ah heng suksuk, sei sum, ah meng suksuk, mm sum, ah wai gorgor, gorgor, xiu man jiejie, pui wan jiejie, koonnai jiejie, pui yee jiejie, ah heng, sinn yin, jane jane, kar kit. SEK FAN!!!!!!!!!!'

no more the excitement of eating fast and the fight of chopsticks during the big reunion dinner..

no more going to the old greenish 60s refridgerator to pull out a couple of soft drinks to quench my thirst due to the HOT weather in tapah road.

no more choosing a spot to sleep in the crowded room.

absence of toilet and bathroom waitting line up moments in the house.

absence of 'argh~!! no line in kampung zzzzzz =.='

absence of '=( i miss internet.... no facebook no msn.. so sien'

absence of 'aiyak.. no astro.. only can watch tv1 tv2 8tv... kekeke all old show geh'

absence of gathering around the tv.. waitting for your zodiac to appear on tv and see what your lucks for this coming year...

absence of 'small gamble n midnight CNY snacking with each other in the living room'

absence of the feel when you are too bored of the warm and happy atmosphere in the house.. u need to take a ride out on 'ah ma's red bicycle around the kampung...

i miss all those feeling... =(

This year din get to go back dad's hometown tapah road.

but we also had our own little KL reunion dinner..

will update this post with more photoes soon.

things that make u go "ssss....."

2010-02-12T13:04:00.000-08:00

"ssss....." is a sound that i make when i see something hot/sexy/unbelieveble..../or when its really really cold!! xD

how to make that sound ?

imagine your lips slightly open.. but your teeth are closed... and your tongue pushing your lower front teeth... then take a deep breath in with with your mouth...

tats how "ssssssssss...." is....

i make that sound mostly when i heard some unbelieveble news.. mostly tragedy

*sssssssssssss...............ouch* how sad to hear tat...

and

also most of the times im in genting.....

if i walk out to the ourdoors..... "sssssssssssss........ cold....fuuuuuuuuuuuuu"....

"ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....." (haha u will just hear me non stop doing it....)

and lastly also when i see something incrediblely 'gorgeous / beautiful / hot / handsome / sexy '

i will eventually make the 'sssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.....' sound... without being notice by the 'he or she' which i m looking at.. hehe..

when u see something u know its hot and sexy... u will know..

that feel hits u straight in the heart that pumps it tru your whole body..

your sense will eventually react automaticcally...

to me = 'sssssssssssss.....'

=) i 'sssssssssssssssss.......'-ing now...

coz i just saw something that made me 'ssssssssss....'

its really a super 'ssssssss...'

男生们，请你们好好珍惜倒追你们滴女生！！！！

2010-02-03T10:30:00.001-08:00

每個女孩子其實都很清楚知道的

選擇愛自己的人才會不受傷

去追自己愛的人一定會受傷一定會心痛

因為每個人都告訴過她「主動的女孩不會被珍惜的」

然而，她還是會因為喜歡你

鼓起勇氣告訴你她對你的依戀

還是像飛蛾撲火一樣為你受傷為你付出

男孩子一定要清楚地知道

其實倒追你的她

絕不是一個沒有人愛的女孩

她身後會有很多仰慕者

她只是想把握自己心裡的愛

因為她是那麼認真對待愛情的人啊

也許對於別的人來說，你就是一個很普通的人

可是對於她來說

就算你有那麼多的缺點

她也全部包容，願意留在你身邊

不管現在的你是否一無所有

也許她會是你一生不會再遇到第二次的女孩

也是笨拙的你怎麼努力都追不到的那種好女孩

是失去了以後再也找不回來的天使

她曾經是無淚的天使

遇見你，為了你放棄了無淚的天堂

每個女孩一生也許只有那麼一次鼓起勇氣來愛一個男孩。

如果你生命中遇到過這樣的女孩

如果你可以做到

就請珍惜她

就像所有的其他的男孩子珍惜一個女孩子一樣珍惜她

如果你心裡曾對她動過心，曾經心疼她，就請好好珍惜她

不要把她的心傷害成她自己再也無法拼接的碎片

不要總是說對她愧疚

不要總是告訴她，你永遠想念她

可知道她的勇氣是拼盡全力換來的

只為說出那幾個字，已然用盡所有

如果不是那麼愛你

她不會傻到放下身邊很多優秀的男生去向你表白

如果不是那麼在乎你

她不會不顧家人的反對要和你在一起

如果不是把你當作最後的賭注

她會不要自己的尊嚴

請珍惜她

也許你一輩子也不會再遇到這樣為了你放棄尊嚴的女子。

也許你是她第一個也是最後一個願意放下尊嚴的男人

因為她也怕受傷啊

所以，珍惜她

也許你會覺得沒有了自己的男子漢的氣魄

但請相信你得到的會遠遠超出你認為的失去的東西

其實你並不會失去什麼

她的勇敢

她的決然

她的氣魄

都是你無法想像的

她比你勇敢

她比你堅強

甚至比你瀟灑

擁有這些優秀品質的女孩難道不值得你去愛？

請珍惜倒追你的女孩

因為你在還沒有注意到她的時候她已然深深的愛上了你

她默默的念著你

裝作不在乎的打聽著關於你的一切

然後了解你的愛好和夢想

努力成為能夠配得上你的人

為此你不知道她付出了多大的努力

也許是開始關心起你的愛好

比如籃球這類她本不擅長的運動皆因為你而拼命學習

也許是開始減肥

男生都不知道，減肥是一件多麼需要毅力的事情

如果一個女生因為你而減肥成功

那麼你就可以考慮娶她

因為各種艱苦汗水淚水都是絕對的證明

也許是開始打探你的各樣聯繫方式

因為她希望能夠與你有更多的接觸

也許是開始關注你所關注的事情

因為她不想在思維上跟不上你

你知道一個女生要擁有飛蛾撲火般的勇氣需要累積多久嗎

所以你一定要有耐心等待那個真正愛你的女孩，好嗎

你可知道她需要背負什麼樣的心理包袱嗎

她難道就沒有考慮過如果被你拒絕後

她怎麼來面對剩下的局面嗎

她不怕被朋友們所笑話嗎

你知道一個女生要從你身上轉移開注意力需要多久嗎

有一句話叫做，一見鐘情的往往是男人，而一往情深的往往是女人。

你知道讓一個女孩放棄一個心愛的男生是可以做怎麼樣的比喻嗎

如果你知道一個詞叫做骨肉分離便知道了

她只是想像一個普通的小女孩一樣

待在所愛的男孩身邊，不要離開也沒有遺憾

如果有一天

她帶著傷成碎片的心離開一切就再也來不及了

轻已得到的东西往往不会被珍惜。。。。。"

男生们，请你们好好珍惜倒追你们滴女生！！！！

FEVERS n JAMS

2010-02-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

For the pass few months,

"fever" has been quite a frequent visitor towards my body.

so totally unwelcomed guest!!

but its due to my thonsels (i duno hw to spell..its something in my throat la)

it had be swollen since i was young.. but it had recover coz i switch to drink Diamond water (total truth not an advertorial)

ever since i switch to drink diamond i had lesser sickness of sorethroat case..

maybe due to the fact that i had moved to my bro's new house since last few months, they are using another type of water filter. my body cannot adjust with it.. or maybe my body just loves diamond more then ever.

thats y my fever and sore throat is all coming back!! oh god diamond i need u!!

from ada day light (evening) jam until below
dark at night d la... still jam... ^&*%^&%#%@#%^&%
morning jam!! in nkve tol!! siao.. pay tol still need to be stuck in jam.. what is the TOL　highway for??
in the morning just baru after the touch n go bar~~ tut~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ dun need to press accelerator d..
baru only pass the touch n go bar.. stuck for the same position for at least 15 mins~~~~~~~
stuck at this position for half and hour~!! i really wanna scold all those bad words out d...

see la at malaysia drive sports car also need to stuck in jam geh!! so sien... really wat the *tut tut*

jam jam jam =.=
both directions also.. life in usj (ultra super jam)
jam at 17 (just outside college)

jam to college in the morning
siao one i tell u.. at this time also can jam !!!

besides tat.. i m really frustrated abt the fact that my weekdays are totally screwed up by traffic jams!!!!!!!!!!

seriously.. morning jam to class.. noon jam under the hot sun... evening jam with other out of the office... night jam to work at puchong!! then jam come home..

jam jam jam jam jam jam jam

have u ever been stuck in a jam for 2 whole hours... wtf man!!!

not just 1 day 2 hours.. everyday 2 hours.. every morning n evening.. (macam makan ubat racun)!!!

haiz.... i really promise alot of ppl i dun wan late for this.. i dun wan late for tat...

but... y must i always be stuck in jam... haiz.. maybe alot of u will say this an excuse.. but but but.. u see up there those pics... T.T .. haiz...

kinda true =) my zodiac luck for last year...

2010-02-01T07:16:00.000-08:00

性格：崇尚自由、无拘束的生活。其独立心强、为人坦率，属直线型思考模式。具有乐天的人生观，颇能得到朋友和部属的信赖。为人豪爽、活泼、直感，推断力强，头脑灵活、机警、迅速，对任何事都很坦率，正直，并且善于口才；英雄主义很重，常替人打抱不平。独缺乏恒心，容易半途而废。对事物的好恶差距大，很容易走极端、是个性急、任性的人。无法忍受隐身不显，他们必须表达自己，必须在能表达自己特点的气氛中，自由自在地行动。

一生运势：午年生人，其性好动不好静，多喜出风头，而对社会交际极为巧妙，且多管他人事，备受人敬爱，并有贵人牵引以至成功，此人欲好外观，对内事缺乏观察，又好投机事业，且有怪癖之主张。致所思想及计划之事，难保其机密，此人有伶俐、敏速、为人亲切、好旅行、牺牲、自夸、焦燥、悲观的素质。

流年运势：吉星扶持，整体的好运带来各方面的旺盛。事业稳定，财运兴旺，家庭和睦。一年中总会有些运程低落，但每次遇到阻碍和困难时候，都有贵人相帮，转危为安，需要注意的是饮食卫生，克服不良嗜好，保持健康身体。

财运：财运稳中见旺，可以投资生意，唯一的要坚定自己的理念，不被外界的舆论所误导。特别是对回报利润较高的生意，宜全心的投入，合理安排资金用途。

健康：虽然你今年的健康颇佳，但请选择健康的食品，不可暴饮暴食，以免心脏肠胃出现毛病。

适合的职业：科学家、企业家、诗人、政治家

爱情：性情直率不讳，喜欢与厌恶，表现非常明显，不作暧昧表示，多数人晚婚，因爱好自由无拘束，婚姻容易陷入危机。

大吉婚配：虎(寅)、羊(未)、狗(戌)

LOL oh god.. - i love freedom too much til i will married late.. LOL is tat really me?? hahahhaa i wonder =p

I will never love again.

2010-01-26T00:55:00.000-08:00

Speechless lyrics

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreamsa

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Lady Gaga Speechless lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/lady-gaga-speechless-lyrics.html
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?
Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

this song is from gaga - speechless

suddenly fall in love with this song.

haiz. not a good thing to fall in love with this song.. if u guys understand what does it meant.

emo-ing

my year end holidays 2009 (part 1)

2009-12-28T00:11:00.000-08:00

It all begins with flashes of the cameras and the cheers of a million people!

see really got a million ppl around the background! its a concert ma =p

The beginning of my holiday,
was in genting with my cousins ^^ we went to Rynn Lin Yu Zhong's concert =)
it was nice at the starting of the trip..

but towards the middle something happen and made me emo..

its Kheng (aka KK) my sis Yin (aka Sandy) my cousin sis Lyn (aka Celina)

it was so COLD!!!

Luckily there was always starbucs with me =)

candys in genting!! with lyn and yin =)

"AMMmmmm~~!!"

they wear lining up for autograghs of "dong yu zhe".

but looking back at all the photoes

it wasn't that bad at all..

everybody was happily enjoying ^^
so what the heck.. forget and forgive... may all be well and happy

followed by the visit from my johor relatives =)

my 4th uncle and his children (TRIP TO KL!! for them it is xD)

besides that, on the last day of my uncle's trip to KL, it was also my parent's wedding anniversay day!
My sis and I had planned an anniversary night out for my parents..
hehe..it was a suprise for them xD!!
it was sweet and cute for both of them.
its their 28th wedding anniversay if not mistaken.. hehe
so when we sent them off for their date,
me n yin made our own plans too in 'nui che shui'.
we went to the original and 1st branch of

it wasn't my 1st time coming to FULL HOUSE d..

love the environment.. but it was a 1st for Yin.
You can tell how much she enjoyed the food too
from the photoes below.. hehehe ^^

*munch munch munch~ MMhhmm*
Yin's meal : [speghetti tose in olive oil + dried chili + spices + 4 juicilious shrimps]
My meal : [pineapple cubes + fried chicken cutlets + mayo/spices]

a lot of food was involved (this holiday)in committing
the big crime of stuffing my body with fats! xD
especially the ones on our Christmas Night celebration,
Dinner Buffet in Sunway Towel Hotel.

Just look at the amount of plates!!! -.- btw that's my bro and his gf =)

it start off FROM these
The night before the Buffet (christmas eve)

to these.................

and we became the shrimp eating sisters~~

there were oysters and crabs too!!
was just too busy and hungry eating til forgot to took picture xD
most photoes was taken after i couldn't bare to held up another spoon nor fork
to scoop food into my mouth anymore. hehe ^^

mommy and daddy ^^ and me!!

mom is looking at the way daddy is eating >>

Moms sudden attack kiss *smooch smooch* shocked daddy!! 0.0!!

Lovely Christmas =)
wonderful holidays... to be continue...

vitas opera 2

2009-12-26T01:00:00.000-08:00

Dancing on 2 short legs o.o

2009-12-25T11:21:00.000-08:00

just finished watching "another Cinderella story", the acting skills of the actors in it didn't really caught my attention.. the only thing in the movie that keep my hands off the remote control was the element dancing in the movie..
Love the dance move.. the how the story was linked with it... the part when 'joey parker' is dancing with 'mary' made me remember my times of dancing in the club and also in other performances.. i m realized i was smiling by my own and my body "itched" as in.. my legs and hands my shoulders and head all together wanted to move so badly with the song.. its the 1st time this happen to me.. and i knew that i m totally addicted to dancing..

but.. who wants to see me dancing on my 2 short legs.. btw i m just a lil higher than 5 feet.. make that only 0.03m taller.. haha.. short right?? hmm, well even so.. i dun care whether is there anybody looking or not.. but it does adds the bonus to my confidence to be an attention freak.. xD just joking.. but i really do love dancing..

just like times in the club.. even if i dont drink.. i can still feel the music and move along.. i may not and might look "ok" or silly dancing with my own moves.. but i love it.. its a way to release stress also a way to have fun.. especially when i m with my peeps and bffs.. its fun to see everybody move along and loosen up a little bit... sometimes u can all can of silly moves on the dance floor... but thats also why it makes me happy.. coz we can all laugh at each others silly moves.. and dun give a dam about it.. as long as everybody is just having fun ^^

i really hope when i was younger like 12 or something i took some break dance classes or hip hop classes... for the past few weekends.. i have been watching "battleground street dance competition".... Malaysian dancers are really getting more and more pumped up compare to a decade ago.. we are really good!! =) never knew i could be so proud of my own nation in dancing... but i m!! well done for the champions this year.. and also not to give up for those who didn't made it.. if only i had push myself more into this interest.. i could have give it a try in this competition.. i m not going to give up yet... but i m really looking forward to form a dance troop and give dancing another chance in my life b4 i step into the working field...

really hope i can have just maybe a partner.. or a few more.. to enjoy real dancing together..but i know i m not good.. that's why i need somebody to teach me more... sometimes ppl would advise me if i want all this.. just go join a dance class.. its "everywhere in town" nowadays.. but i do not have the extra cash every month to pay up for the classes... and i also do not have a fix time... this maybe excuses for myself.. but it is what it is.. i just want something in leissure that its just for fun yet serious in good quality dance...

this whole session of writing about dance made me think of the time, i used to watch youtube and browsed about dance moves... and the "how to"s for doing various kind of dance moves..
i do dance in front of my mirror and my laptop at the side while watching those youtube clips..
it was really hardwork as i have to rewind and play... and dance.. then rewind and play then dance again.. as it is not as easy as having a teacher/dancing friends in front of you to tell you whats wrong whats right and in what way... and totally no ppl beside you for you to share your happiness and fun in dancing...

most peeps go to clubs to get what they wanna get... which made this year's christmas eve a lousy experience for me.. i could see all those ppl in the club had "i m looking for somebody to spend the night with tonight" on their forehead when i step into the club... its really nothing wrong with that.. but it totally spoils my mood as everybody is looking so desperate and with the addition of the sucky music played by the DJ... all i can say is.. it was wrong crowd and lousy music that i just could not connect with at all... maybe its just my personal problem.

I really hope "The Opera" wont disappoint me on new year's eve next week, praying for a good time to enjoy my last day of 2009 and welcome 2010 with a great laughter with my closest friends and a good good session of FUN and great dancing.... praying for "a Good gOOd Night" (B.E.P.) please make me have that "feeling" of joy once more before i put an full stop to this year! *fingers cross*

2009-12-23T09:05:00.001-08:00

最近我看了很多黄明志的youtube。。。还有读了他的部落各。。。
觉得这个人真的很厉害很刁。。有很多事都让我敬佩他。。。。
除了他曾经批国的行为之外。。当然就是他在massmedia这方面的创意和音乐方面的坚持。。
他真的好厉害。。。他是我第一个看过“敢讲敢做”的人。。

好想亲自替他打气加油。。可是我觉得他如今是个大忙人。。应该不会理会吧。。
无论如何。。在这里说声。。“黄明志，加油！”

SOME.... =)

2009-12-03T07:41:00.000-08:00

stressful ppl...
stressful moments...
stressful TOFU..
struggling situations..
happy times... and when everything was innocent

some love long and chewy..
some just love to be around with others and share the love..

well some are just DIFFERENT.... which love fiddling around with long and hard objects

some just love to stand and some just love holding camera

some loves cheesy and FATTY yet DELICIOUS food..

some just love simplicity

losing a love one...

2009-12-01T04:17:00.000-08:00

losing something u own.. is already bad..
losing something u touch and see and nature everyday... is more sad..
losing something u love and want to see it grow up... is even more sad..
knowing the reason u lost it.. bcoz a cat ATE it... its even a bigger tragedy...
i lost my baby chicken to a stray cat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

loosing one is already sad... and still keeping one more chicken... which is constantly 'calling out' for the one who just died.. is even more sad.. and looking at the one which is still alive.. struggling and banging his cage to get out.. eager to search for the 'missing one' which is the dead one.. is even more more more more more more heartache!!!!!!!!!!!!

it made me cry and lost my appetite....
its just only a chicken to many ppl... but its my pet ok... eventhough i know he will be gone and in my family's dinner table.. but i am still not ready for tat reality now.. which is 'her' being eaten by a cat... knowing tat she suffered... makes me no appetide....
see-ing the one.. struggling to get out of the cage.. to try to find the other one... makes me sad..
and makes me understand tat they have feelings to... eventhough chickens just have the memory space of 4 hours.. but HE is conditioned to stay with HIS partner.. and now she's gone.. and HE is not eating at all... and he has the sad face all over him... this makes me wanna CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun think i wan to eat chicken anymore...

Days without internet~~

2009-11-17T06:43:00.000-08:00

ITS THE END .. THE END IS NEAR!!!!!!!!!! 2012?? no la... just......no internet lor.. for 1 months +
"what so BIG DEAL without internet?? you can still survive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! " said ppl who do not appreciate the invention of WIFI, GPRS, WLAN, internet technology~~~~~~~~~ i would DIE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! without a single day without it... but well.. who knew!! i did survive it.. but i did miss out alot of action from facebook or alot of updates from my lecturers.. which was a major tragedy for me.. as i kena warning letter and also other circumstances from some of my subjects =( but oh well..
i still do have to admit i d had a great time even without the cyber space in my daily rutine =)!!

lets see.. besides the logging on and signing in to msn or fb or hotmail..
i still have the usual snapping pics in COLLEGE~~~~~
familiar??guess who is this =P

we had a BBQ too... the invitation was sent online via facebook but i didn't knew.. coz i NO INTERNET MA~~~~ but i m glad... i m not left out.. everybody still told me.. hehehe so touched and happy.. and had such a great time.. =)

( more will be update on the next post abt bbq)

Besides just the normal college life.. i had a photoshoot at my make up academy.. everything from my make up to my hair was done by my seniors.. but i was not very please.. i still think i have better talents.. not trying to be a showoff.. but see for your own eyes!!! they made me from this....

into that....

how sad!! HER SKILLS was so BAD!!

she made me feel like i m a PIG!!! i felt UGLY and no confident at all!!!! i was UGLY!!!!!!!!!! :'(

speaking of over-reacting??? SO NOT!!!!!!!!! when my frenz came to visit me at the academy.. the 1st sentence came out from her mouth was :" WOW!!! your make up artist made you look.......... BIG (meaning round fat huge.. u name it)"

T.T my senior was litterally EXPERIMENTing on me... i hate it... so much.. i felt like crying..

even the photographer take some shoots and told me my style for the day was so off.. and my hair and my make up is just a totally mis-match.. after listenin to those comments i felt like a dagger pierce tru my FAT heart.. god... it was pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after that painful awful and traumatising experience.. i ran straight into my car..
and do what i do best!! a make over from a PIG into my normal-self~~
i transform myself from those above into.....

i did all that while she .... foong foong
she was driving my car ^^ it was raining =(
and her driving skills was a lil bit scary...
but we survived ^^*thank god* and we went to Tappers
to enjoy my favourite original french!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yummy =P
i intro foong foong to eat it too.. see her enjoying it..

i love her hair!!! it won her fren , the hairstylist who did this, a gold medal (1st place) in a hair competition u know~~~!!! nice right??? =p

but who knew~~~ in that one day... i from a normal girl.. turn into a pig.. then turn back to myself again.. and plus a little editting in photoshop..
i could be this girl...

the world is so advance... why let all the techno go to a waste.. use it wisely!!! and i love myself and my internet and my laptop and my ex phone (n79) so much!!!!!!!!! =p

Life in Jaya One - IACT

2009-10-17T05:07:00.001-07:00

this is one of the person who likes to possess my phone with their faces... this is when it was with my old phone (N79):

and some with my new phone too.. haiz.. chin chin and mable =.= robbers of my phone will see all your face not mine.. =p

she also like to take snap shots of me during our discussiong thanks to them.. i look like a diva "LOL" paiseh just joking around =p
so busy also wanna candit me and jill.. right? jill ..
jill:"huh?"

one of the creative 'lady jojo' brainstorming with us in wendy's (our place of inspiration) =p
<<<<<<<<<< style="cursor: pointer; width: 153px; height: 204px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_Xu8rMu7bzKo/Stm1immkHRI/AAAAAAAAASY/kl6nh8l6dFg/s320/08102009615.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5393541634835356946" border="0"> another bond^^ hehe

with more FOOD.. more and more and more~~~~~~ PEOPLE eating food.. ( kai xin - the one who always get caught in action with some food and i meant it.. EVERYTIME ) =p

som e also
try to get
involve in
the same crime

shy is never the less SHY - not!!! to pose for my camera =) gee... that was a great meal ^^ right?? hehe

ans some are just too shy to show their faces.. but not SHY at all to show off some NEW hair styles =)
(han ling in class =) )

life is weird and sometimes sad in jaya one
especailly when u loose your nokia N79 handphone =(

but yet.. although loosing a gadget is painful..
but yet bonding between each hearts in IAA71 and 72 was created =)

ups and downs happen in life.. sometimes we just have to remember what made us happy and continue sharing that feeling with everybody =) thats life in jaya one for me ^^
thats all for this times LIFE in jaya one ^^ hehehe

2009-09-30T08:30:00.001-07:00

dun worry!!! its just a project =)
this was done for my kancil awards =p kinda freaky huh?! =)

it too us quite some time to do it. but was worth it ^^
and it was follow by a great meal with joseph gorgor at tappers in the morning!!

and also NAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! medicure ^^ at pyramid =p just b4 i went to khairy's open house =)

cute ma ? =p

this was down becoz i wanna look pretty at my cousin sis phooi see's wedding ^^

i m in purple and sis in red

Days of rain, emoness, party and hardwork!!!

2009-09-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

its the RAINING season again~~~~~~ poof =(

bringing all the RoManTic yet~~~~~~~ emo emo emo emo... all u get it... that feel... when its so cold out of a sudden.. u feel like u need a person to be next to you and hug you.. to give u tat kind of cossy and warm touch..... yeah.. u guys go picture it yourself -.- haiz............. emo~~

plus the jam everyday.. (in the morning in NKVE)

and i mean EVERYDAY!! omg... ish ish ish... at this time!! =.= its a A.M.

but i learn a few tricks now of how to enjoy myself and calm my nerves down during the jam..

1stly.. breakfast is not a 'must' to eat at home now... (true-ly truely recommend Mcd over KFC!!! =.= their breakfast sucks.. Mcd is much better!!)just grab one.. from 'drive-tru' but the coffee always spills anyway... so i just take the burger only instead. and end up.. treating the dustbin in my class room with the coffee in the plastic bag... wahaha...

partying is also not a "must" in my night life adi... it still is partly my life =p but...
i rather have more time spending it to hug my young and soon to be "wild child- princess" baby cousin...

HI, my name is YEEEEEEEE rou~ =D

what a cheeky little fella.. haven't even know how to read ABC ou adi know how to molest your cousin sis!! =.= oh dear.. oh well mine are just too huge for your little palms =p!!"haiz~~ i will give up then.. grabbing yellow bearbear is better" mumbled rourou (her name)

also having more precious time with my peeps and pals i cherish so much..

from the sweet laughters.. to de cold emo ... what a transformation wei ling~!! xD

oh dear!! she is a mighty heavy one which comes in a "XS" size.. dun be fooled!!! i tell u SHE IS HEAVY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =.= i was force to smile tat way =p to complete the beautiful photo.. hahaha
this is another "XS" size in my college ^^ haha she is my "jiji"!!! *hugs*

and FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is never the least thing in my life.. haha although i know i m on a diet... but oh well.... do u live to eat or do u eat to live??? for me both are equally balance... hehe ^^

see how big the shrimp is!!

who say i dont drink?? i drink too okay.. plenty of them!! =p

the student price offer meal ^^ yum.. less than 15bucs... and a great forefilling meal!!
go to the IACT admin(3a floor) to grab yourself the 'student loyalty Nando's card'... its really worth it!! ^^

cheeky and cute toilet sign yeah~~

after all the stress and tiredness = crazy act cute wannabe ME!! -.-
the best kai gor and best working groupmate you can count on!! JOSEPHsasa CHAN KWAN MENG!!

all work work work and more hardwork was done and all effort was put in for kancil student awards!!!! 2 nights of no sleep and all work... is hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but had a great dinner after we finished it !! ^^ had a wonderful time at nandos~~~

oh ya... and the end of the night.. i FELL sick and i m in with an HIGH FEVER!!!!!!!!!!! =( sick.. sick.... oh my.. but it will recover soon~~~~~~~~~~~~ i guess =P of coz i will!!!! bcoz its going to be raya soon!!!!!!!!!!! and i wan to eat rendang and MORE~~~~~~~~~~~~ food ^^

Depress moments

2009-09-12T22:53:00.000-07:00

was feeeling very depress the other night.. felt like the whole world is going down to an end..
sms-ed lots of peeps... but most of them replied the next day...
it was still good at least they still reply. and i fel tthe support and the care..

or else i think i will be doing smoking and also drinking very very very often....
dun wan to be like tat.. but the only thing tat can make me feel less stress is drinking... coz at least when i m high and drunk.. i cant think of any of those nightmares... at least after tat few hours of highness i get to sleep soundly... eventhough i wud wake up with migrains... but at least its better than no sleeping at all.... =(
but i know myself.. i wont get into this type of shit.. coz of my self-restrictions and frenz i have around and family tat i care.. i know i wont be smoking or drinking.... but tats y.. its pain... coz.. i cant seem to find other ways to release all these stress...

Tattoo on the NECK ?

2009-09-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

after so many things happened in my 'dramatic' life... i just felt like i wanna have a small tattoo on my neck... but i m not too sure about it.. i m afraid i might let my parents kill me.. xD!!
but feel like getting one... with the word "友" on it.. coz all my life all the ups and downs.. i been tru.. my frenz were the ones beside me.. to hug me.. comfort me and cheer me up...
i truely feel safe with you guys.. i really do..
especailly to foong foong after what happen recently...
slowly realise... jiji, xinxin,lingling,shyshy,mable,lynn,joyce chin and mostly those in iact become very close to them... really really love shyshy, jiji, xinxin,esther and lingling... coz we hang out so often together recently... and the way they care and the way the cheer me up.. give me so many support... make me so gan dong.. =) thank you all so much
last but not least of coz is my i-style girls and not to forget.. my lengleng and sasa +hoong hoong and khin khin lor... so long frenz adi... friendship still so strong.. those words tat we write in each other's autographbook really din go to a waste..=)

so well... when will i get tat tattoo.. hmmm
at 1st i tot i wan wings.. coz i wanted freedom... and i m always all around ... thats y wings suit me.. but now as a grow up a lil more.. i realise... freedom is just an asset.. everybody has it. just depending on do u know how to control it =).... but frenz.. and strong frenship are hard to get.. i truely will cherish it.. if i have.. so having a tattoo on my neck will always remind tat those frenz i m strongly in touch with and also to those who help me true my hard times..

strawberry trifle Rino

2009-07-07T08:12:00.000-07:00

he was tall n sweet =) gentle and a joker...'Rino'
when i taste the strawberry trifle i knew i was truly happy and i was pemperded... by you Rino..
i was going to like n cling on this feeling eventhough it start not to be so, i knew if i were with him, i will be in good hands... but at last.. he saw and read tru my mind and soul... he felt my heart was not really with him.. he questioned..and questioned... searching for the least hope he could get... looking at his eyes.. i couldn't bare to make'em cry... but he felt my heart which wasn't longing for him... he left.. i felt his hatred and disappointment and HURT when he left...
now i feel so guity... i appreciated everything u have done for me.. especailly making me happy!!
i truly was... when u were by my side... the strawberry trifle and the feeling of happiness when i ate it with u.. lingers in me.. but i m sorry we couldn't make it together in the future..
but i m very sorry that i hurt you.. eventhough a million sorry wouldn't cure.. but i hope u can accept my appology.. if you see this...

Strawberry cake (^)

2009-07-04T23:19:00.000-07:00

duno why.. recently i have the urge and eager to taste abite of a strawberry cake...

those which are made from vanilla and strawberry essenses sponge cake layered with fresh milky mooses in between covered with snowie icing garnish with finely diced nuts at the side and bottom... n covered with fresh RED..juicy..HUGE.. strawberry's on the top of the cakes... hmmmmmm mmm.... =) the ones in "RT pasrty ss15" bakery are totally the ones tat suits my tastes buds..!!!

maybe its coz.. everything been so bitter and sour due to rumors betrayal n some roughs roads in life... i really d need something to sweeten up and see the wonder of the bright blue sky again.
and hopefully after a bite of this strawberry cake that i longed for... everything will be fine again =)

两年前的你我（2007）。。。两年后的你我（2009）。。。

2009-05-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

为什么最近没有新的部落革。。。也没看到你上网。。。你很忙吗??

happy birthday to u... happy birthday to u.. happy birthday to xu xu da ge... happy birthday to u... =).. 又大一岁了，愿你天天与aki甜甜蜜蜜，永远开心。。。生日快乐

好感动哦！。。。。。好厉害，是谁写的。。。好浪漫。。。

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 28, 2007

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矛盾是自己给的...重点在于自己的抉择. 而,证明总是建立在道理的不屑. 要求自己赶上时间的脚步吧...你一定可以的.. 泥机...长久以来谢谢你的捧场. 我会加油的..你也是..

天涯小孤侠发表意见于 Mar 28, 2007

写得很好，很对！。。。可是有时我也会要求一些证明。。但这个道理我几年前已领悟过了。。。所以现在不会要求，同时也变得很自相矛盾

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 28, 2007

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这是光亮品冠的哥,没想到除了我还有人会记得这首旧歌。。。听这首歌会哭的咧。。。

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 24, 2007

泥机好品味....嗯嗯

天涯小孤侠发表意见于 Mar 24, 2007

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不明白，不明白什么方法一样??

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 20, 2007

你要highlight它们....笨泥机

天涯小孤侠发表意见于 Mar 26, 2007

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scary a!! very scary.... i oso got listen b4 this kind of story.. very scary a... xu xu ge!! scary scary scary a~~~ next time i oso scare scare d lor...

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 19, 2007

别怕...有我在...哈哈...我会保护人

天涯小孤侠发表意见于 Mar 19, 2007

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这些以上的都是两年前的我们。。。当时我们都是朋友罢了。。可是那时已经开始暗恋你。。。是你不懂罢了。。从两年前的相识。。。然后突然你的失踪。。然后两年后的再度相遇。。。然后在一起。。。我仍然是没变的那个。。。。我的证据就是。。。

你相信谁? （一）

　　有一年登山社去登山,其中有一对感情很好的情侣在一起.
　　
　　当他们到山下准备攻峰时,天气突然转坏了,但是他们还是要执意的上山去.
　　
　　于是就留下那个女的看营地,可过了三天都没有看见他们回来.
　　
　　那个女的有点担心了,心想可能是因为天气的原因吧.
　　
　　等呀等呀,到了第七天,终于大家回来了,可是唯独她的男友没有回来.
　　
　　大家告诉她,在攻峰的第一天,她的男友就不幸死了!
　　
　　他们赶在头七回来,心想他可能会回来找她的.
　　
　　于是大家围成一个圈,把她放在中间,到了快十二点时,突然她的男友出现了还混身是血的一把抓住她就往外跑.他女朋友吓得哇哇大叫,极力挣扎,这时她男友告诉她....
　　
　　在攻峰的第一天就发生了山难!
　　
　　全部的人都死了只有他还活着........
　　
　　你相信谁?
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2007年。。我是这样回答你。。。。。

“if me.. i will trust my bf lor... coz i trust tat he wont lie to me.. but very scary leh ur blog..”

o<(^.^) loo loo 发表意见于 Mar 19, 2007

你却说。。。。

“心如姐...你的看法真不同”

天涯小孤侠发表意见于 Mar 19, 2007
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2009年的你。。。在电话上也告诉我这个故事。。。我一样也是回答一样的东西。。。
可是你记得吗？？？
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我没变过你能察觉到吗？？？
我对你的爱。。。。你能理解吗？？？
“缘分”戏弄了我。。。
因缘。。我们从相识做朋友，我便暗恋你。。然后因无缘我独自面对你的失踪。。。这是两年前的事。。。（2007）
然后因缘你的突然出现，我开心得傻了。。不敢向你表白的我。。把你推给了我朋友。。可是因缘我们误打误撞的相遇。。。让我们演变成情侣。。。。以为可以幸福了。。。（可是一样的我们还是分开了。。。（2009）
（我想要的4年后（2013）的愿望没了）

可是你这两年的生日我都有祝福你。。可能。。我们之间就只有这样。。
也许两年后。。。我们能真正的相遇。。。能再在一起。。。（2011）
然后可能再两年后（2013）。。。我们实现我的愿望。。。也许我们会再次分开也不一定。

亲爱的小怪侠，

2009-05-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

男孩和女孩是一对青梅竹马的恋人。
　　

有一天，男孩女孩牵着手去逛街。当经过一家首饰店门口时，女孩一眼看见了摆在玻璃柜中里的那条心形的金项链。女孩心想：我的脖子这么白，配上这条项链一定好看。
　　男孩看见了女孩眼中的那依依不舍的目光，他摸摸自己的钱包，脸红了，拉着女孩走开了。
　　

几个月后，女孩的20岁生日到了。
　　在女孩的生日宴会上，男孩喝了很多酒，才敢把给女孩的生日礼物拿出来，那正是女孩心仪的那条心形的金项链。
　　女孩高兴地当众吻了一下男孩的脸。
　　过了半晌，男孩才憋红着脸，搓着手，嗫嚅地说：“不过，这、这项链是……铜的……”
　　男孩的声音很小，但客厅里所有的客人都听见了。
　　女孩的脸蓦地涨得通红，把正准备戴到自己那白皙漂亮的脖子上的项链揉成一团随便放在了牛仔裤的口袋里。
　　“来，喝酒！”
　　女孩大声说，直到宴会结束，女孩再也没看男孩一眼。
　　

不久后，一个男人闯进了女孩的生活。男人说，他什么也没有，只有钱。
　　当他把闪闪发光的金首饰戴到女孩身上时，同时也俘虏了女孩那颗爱慕虚荣的心。
　　他们很快便在外面租了一间房子同居了。男人对女孩百依百顺，女孩暗暗庆幸自己在男孩和男人之间的选择。
　　对于女孩来说，那真是一段幸福的日子。
　　但是好景不长，在女孩发现自己怀孕了的同时，也发现男人失踪了。
　　当房东再一次来催她缴房租时，她只得走进了当铺，把自己所有的金首饰摆在了柜台上。
　　老板眯着眼睛看了一眼说：“你拿这么多镀金首饰来干什么？”
　　女孩一下子愣住了。
　　接着老板的眼睛一亮，扒开一堆首饰，拿出最下面的那条项链说：“嗯，这倒是一条真金项链，值一点钱。”
　　女孩一看，这不正是男孩送她的那条假金项链吗？
　　当铺老板把玩着那条心形的项链问：“喂，你打算当多少钱”
　　女孩忽然一把夺过那条项链就走了

你还记得吗？？

i cant forget you

2009-04-26T10:10:00.000-07:00

i know i wont forget you...
coz my passwords is made out from your name and my name..
also coz i need to be tam by you everynight b4 i sleep...
i know i cant forget those things... coz every time i sign in here i rmb u.. every b4 i sleep i rmb u.. sometimes even everymorning.. but..

i know i have to learn how to live on my own n take care myself after we went separate ways..
i know i m missing you every minute now... but soon i will get use to it..

we made a very good improvement... we finally grow up n face our problems and we know we cant continue like this...
very glad but also very sad.. cozi miss u..
n badly want u to be here with me... but things happen..
and sometimes something are not meant to be..

i m happy tat i had u once... thats all i can ask for.. =)
thank you so much for taking care of me last time.. i love you.. and i really meant it..
hope you take care of yourself..when i m gone..

i miss you..but i cant show u.. coz i just cant let history happen again and again..

2009-03-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

搞笑 - 罗志祥

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉

想睡就睡想闹就闹

好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道

你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小

眼神里常常显得无聊

他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚

所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

24 03 2009

2009-03-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

Y are you always like this?

today is your specail day! not mine..i know its your choice of who u wan to celebrate with...
but u always told me u wanted to celebrate it with me.. but why u didn't kept your words?
why do u have to do this like this?

i wish that u can feel...
maybe its all not meant to be anyway...

you could just have told me u dont want to celebrate it with me...
instead of giving me hope and smash it into pieces over and over again...

Have you forgotten everything you promised me?
A heart is just too fragile to be hurt over and over again!
Please just stop all your nonsense!
Please just stop all your lies!
You hurt me so much and yet u expect me to love you and be your girl?

Blind i was, to be believing your words
I was just naive and stupid!
Rather spending time with u and gave up my friends, my hopes, my dreams
To trust u and give you chance over and over again was FOOLISH!!
Hurt and hatred is what there is only left...
Deep down in my broken heart, i can do nothing but cry...
Angels look over me... see me pouring tears every night after listening to you complaining that..
"Y are u not caring enough to me and Y you always dont understand me" (what you said everynight)

Behind those complaining...

2009-03-22T11:08:00.000-07:00

few years back i was still complaining how my mom din support me or how she disagree stuff against me...or like yelled "

and complaining that i m not doing chores...yada yada yada~~~

but i tend to stop complaining as i grew bigger, and as mommy grew older.
she stop complaining.... hmmm neh she didn't.. she just dont 'disagree' with me or my sis that much ever since.......... i dun remember when..... she grew tired of complaining dad is not helping with chores... scolding or warning me not to go out so often was also less heard from her... she also does not complain about that much or being depress...

as a EMO kid... which most of us are in this generation in KL,

we understand what depression is and most of us face it b4,
its either we overcome it faster or slower...

i dont why... i start to worried about mommy..
i feel very sympathetatic when i see her doing all the chores..
the cooking... the clothes... the rooms... the floor...everything...

sometimes it got to me.. and i would just walk up to her n say :
"just give me the mop... i'll do it.."

i know its not polite but at least its not rude... behind those not so polite not so rude words..

i actualy wanted her to just rest for a minute...
instead of resting, she was starting on another housework...
" grrrr~~ Why 'ma'?! y cant u just rest for abit?!"
even how frustrating it was..
it actually hurts deep inside..
coz i realize i was just not a good daughter...

why cant i push myself enough to do more for her?
why cant i push myself to do the chores regularly?
why cant i push myself to not be so lazy?
why? i would always sit aside in the dark when all of them are asleep
and ask myself these question...
and tell myself that she's old and weak and sick...

every night she's in pain and
i would always be the one there to massage for her.
Even though sometimes i dont like doing it,
but i know i should because its the least i can do for her..
after a whole day of chores she had done
which actually shoud have been done by me.

i m not a immature kid, i know what i have to do..

but i m just lazy and i dun have the heart to do it..
instead of helping her out... i made her to relax by going for movies
directed by Mr. Neo (Singaporian)
she loves those because its funny and meaningful. she love it.
i thought it was a good thing and i should make her go out more
n feel more relax like how we teen always do but i forgotten something.

therefore, Once there was a very nice movie,

i wanted her to hang out with me n my sis, i knew she liked it, but she refuse to go...
i asked why... she said because if she went out with us...

"nobody will do the chores.. nobody will cook for you all.."

then only i realize... i forgotten

she was a wife and a mom. A good and responsible one.

From those words, no wonder that is y, she always stayed at home when dad n us go out.

i always thought that she was just lazy to go out
but then only realized that she wasn't lazy at all.

She wanted to stay at home
because she want to finish drying up our uniforms/clothes, finish washing the pan and changing bedsheets and all.
Besides that, she was also helping dad to safe one person 'eat-out' "fees".

Mom's going for a surgery tomorrow. She will be at the hospital for 7~10days i estimate.
Even before she is admit into the hospital,
she tried as hard as possible to finish every single minor chores at home, she tried to stock up food, groceries at home to prepare us a week without her at home.

She is doing so much that when i watch i feel like biting up myself. i m such a pempered young lady by my mother but i always cant do much for her.

She reminds me several times of what to do and what not to do
when she will be at the hospital.
She even dare not to remind too many times
because she was afraid i get annoyed by her like how i did when it was a few years back.

Somehow i could feel that behind all those complains and mumbling and negging....
mom is really tough and she really loves and take care of us.

i dont know why

in the 1st time i m feeling that

i m going to miss her so much in this 7~10days...

but i just wouldn't show it out to her...

maybe its coz our family is more alike to be slightly....

....conservative in 'showing family love'

but Mommy's actions speaks louder than words.

I love you mom~ I m sorry....

....i dont show it to you everyday.

i guess finally he gave up...

2009-03-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

he never appear.
as usual.
REASON : i duno why.

but this time
i put a full stop "." to it. it wasn't easily but its time.

i thought he would called or sms back eagerly
to give me some lame excuse,

but he didn't, i guess he finally understand that

i dun wan to listen to those reason anymore

He never called back. He never text.

Its a 1st time and i guess its the last.
maybe he gave up too.

i dun understand why he wont show up.
i use to wonder and question myself as well as him,
but there was just no answer...

~i really did love you~

i guess he was just not listening to me...

i m tired, too tired for this anymore...

i dun wan to pretend that i can do these anymore..
too tired to think of any reasons or be more sympathetic,

its just to tired to get hurt over n over again.

i watch a cooking program this afternoon,
it was about homemade birthday cakes.
i know how to do it,
because it was an chocolate birthday cake in that program.

i wanted to bake one actually.

(images are from google)

but he wont even show up for a normal date.
i dont think he will show up for a small cake anyways.

i guess its really time for everything to be wrapped UP and

put~~~~~~~~............

................~~~~~~~~~~ away now.

today 'was' the day!

2009-03-21T02:43:00.000-07:00

Today was the day that i was waitting for...
but i end up chickening out...
i din go to the audition.
i stayed at home.
and disappointed all those who supported me. =(

Winnie and Ren Lin went there. i thought they were joking.
so i din go. but end up when they were there.
they called me. haiz....and i was at home in my room still thinking

i m so scare and i thought they wont be there.
mayb next year will be good.
at least i prepare myself for 1 more year 1st. =(

among everybody who is dissapointed, i m the one who is most sad and most dissapointed
about myself because i still dont have the guts to do it.

i guess i will just be an audience again this year.

Should i try it?

2009-03-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

i m born in the same year of her but do i have the same talent as her?
An 18 year old winning over everybody,
She made in happen.

this was last year in 2008
i wasn't able to join or be a part of it because i was in NS!!
or maybe ns was just an excuse for me. i think that i wasn't quite ready for it.
It is my dream to join n know how well can i do.
but am i really sure about this?
i dont know.

this year's audition is next week 21st march 2009(saturday),
should i go?
i still dont think i m not ready even after i have learn how to sing from hailo forest.
i m now in my '2nd semester' of vocal class in hailo forest.

actually in there, my teacher, Alan teacher and Selina teacher said:
"you have power, but you just don't know how to control it well yet"

even though, it is somehow a small compliment =), but i dont think i m good enough,
i do know how to play a piano in like 5 years back
when i still have my piano lesson~~~
i think everything is rusty now.
but in the 2nd semester in hailo,
i have to sing and play at the same time!
can i do it?
can i do it as well as him???

i get all nervous and scare
worst is... my voice wouldn't sound quite right
due to the chills and cold sweat when i have stage fright and froze up my throat.
with that and a pair of shivering hands.

i'm not quite sure if i can even pass through
the 1st "30"second of audition
in this once in a life time "30hours non-stop" audition
by Astro Star Quest 2009

but i really really wanna try, and deep down, i dont only want to try,
i wan to really sing on stage,
i wan to be able to blow up the whole crowd of audience
with my powerful voice
besides that i really want to touch ppl's heart by singing.

i wonder if i m going to make a decision by this saturday.
i wonder will i get to stand on that stage like she did.

i wonder if i could even survive all these.

can i ever be a part of this?

will I take a big step ahead into the audition hall ernot!
=(O~O)=
i still dont know!!!
and i only have few more days to think about it.

my sister is supportive but in a way
she is always the one saying i dont sing that well =.=!

oh god~
show me which path i should take...

and would love to get some comments from peeps around.
~peace out~