烦！

有时当情绪低潮时，

真的只希望。。我想要出现在我面前的人，出现。

其他的。。。都希望他们闪一边。

我沉默。。可能代表我脑子里有事请想，

也可能代表。。我没有东西好讲。。

所以。。。请不要逼我说话。。。

我喜欢热闹。。因为喜欢看见大家被我逗得很开心。

可是有时。。开心果是需要‘放假’的。。连劳工都有‘劳动节’。。我怎么可能例外呢？？

所以。。偶尔我比较严肃。。比较静。。。就让我‘开心果’的工作好好休息。。。谢谢体谅

我友善。。不代表我每分每秒都那么大方。。

有些事。。是不能‘得寸进尺’的。。。‘佛都有火’更何况我这个‘凡人’

所以。。。请不要踩到我的头上来。。谢谢合作。

偶尔。。我会突然很孤僻。。。很喜欢一个人坐在一个角落。。

其实我真的没什么。。只是想让自己静下来。。

因为有时觉得角落很舒服。。。很安全。。

偶尔。。我说话语气会不好。。。大声点。。

也许那晚听歌听太大声。。耳鸣了。。。不好意识。。

或也许是为了。。让自己讲的句子添加‘情绪’才那样。。。不是故意要吓倒你们。。

机器总有失效的时候。。。人也不例外。。

偶尔。。我会莫名在掉掉眼泪。。因为。。记性好的我。。

很爱念旧。。好坏的回忆。。我都会这样。。因为知道。。时间不可能重来而遗憾地掉泪。。

所以。。。我不是在‘讨同情’。

可是我真的是个缺乏‘安全感’的孩子。。

所以我很爱‘拥抱’。。因为在‘拥抱里。。觉得没有人可以伤害到我’。。

同时也习惯‘发白日梦’。。因为真实世界里。。大家都太恐怖了。。。为什么不能像童话卡通那样的简单就好。。。

因为长期‘逃避’去面对世界是残酷的。。所以。。经常容易 ‘相信’ 及 ‘依赖’ 错人。。导致自己伤痕磊磊。。。 可是过后也‘学习’了许多。。。

为了自己有‘安全感’。。。

因此常常带着一副密封的面具见人。。搞到自己有时差点‘窒息’。

加上背着日集夜累的包袱往前走。。。使得‘真正的笑容’都被压垮下来了。。

可是这就是人生。。我们只能尽全能跑向未来。。让能跌掉的东西。。统统跌掉。。

不然。。。永远停下脚步。。就永远只是让那些“有的没的”折磨到‘有完没完’。

Cheaper options for FOOD in JAYA ONE??

hmm, due to my broke finance last month i could totally feel how hard it was to survive in jaya one

with all the costy lunch and car park.

and i do see other frenz of mine felt it too.

so...

starting next monday, i will offer a little cheaper options for everybody =)

hoping it does help a little =)

i will be selling some drinks and food (quick bites mostly)

HERE is the list of what i can offer to you guys ^^ :

RM1 per pack

Butter Bun RM1.00

Hotdog Bun RM1.50

Chic Floss Bun RM1.50

Sandwiches(Ham & Egg) RM2.00

Nasi Lemak RM1.50

Chee Cheong Fun(+ fish cake) RM3.00

For alternated days only :

Mee Siam RM1.50

Mee Siam + Egg RM2.00

You guys can grab this by letting me know

via IN person

via sms/phone call

or if its a big amount you want to eat that day..

you are always welcome to Pre-order 1 day in advance ^^

Operating Hours:

9am - 3pm

Monday to Thursday only

It would delighted to know if this could help you guys =)

i m not trying to expand this into a multimillion business.. thats why i didn't leave my contact here

as i m just trying to offer a little extra option for you guys k? =)

This was what i was pack with on march =)

it was really a busy month last month.

alot of planning..

alot of work..

alot of chaos..

but yet alot of smiles and alot of love =)

1st we have jillian's surprise bday =p

then i have sculpture to rush

and it was also my brother's marriage registeration. not wedding yet =)

and oh ya.. i accomplish everything with my BROKE account (negatively direction of finance force.. still baring the pain for this month.. =( haiz )

play now? or play then?

i have been avoiding this site for quite some days, as i had too much in my hand to cope with,

writing here too much would just lead me to being more emotional and slacking in my work.

haiz... alot of things in my heart... but how many ppl are there that i can trust to let it out to them?

anyway.. these few days there were alot going in college...

either assignments, or social.... it was just very crazy..... *sigh*

i know i hurt some of your feelings by just being frank to you girls,

and i guess i m the only stupid one who is brave enough to let it out in your face and not secretly hiding it so that you all can like the 'fake me'... or maybe i m just not that type of person.

i guess i was just too silly to think that i can train you girls up... and maybe i was arrogant to think so..

maybe i should have do all the work by myself, and only let u girls present only.. or maybe i didn't know and understand your feelings well enough to manage this group...

do you think i feel better after sounding out yesterday....

my whole night.. i kept worry-ing did i said too much?? was i being fair or was i being arrogant?? was i being too over?? should i even do that as a friend??? how are they going to feel about me...

my whole night... i was thinking about your feelings....

i even think whether should i grab you girls out to grab some pizza and let you girls feel better..

but maybe it wud seem so fake like.. after i marah marah you girls.. then i pujuk pujuk you all balik... i just dont know.. how to handle this feeling... it better off i m not the leader bcoz it sucks to be one... especially when grouping with close frenz...

i m still wondering did i the right thing or not... or i should have just do all the work by myself.. then later on only teach you all what to present.. instead of intentionally hoping to train you girls up on how to understand n write out those reports... maybe it was just all wrong..

and maybe it just my fault.... if it is.. just let me know... and i will definitely apologize...and make it up to you girls

just now in facebook, i sighed.. i was surprised that you came and comment n tried to cheer me up... its was a "O-M-G" to me... wow.. you were more 'dai fong' then i imagine.. you changed.. and you proved to me.. you handle it well and you improved. i was surprised. super!! (you know who are you when you see this)

you girls.. just let me know... what you all want k? coz i maybe fierce when i m serious in handling work... but i m always ok n open to opinions and critism although i sometimes dun take it so well.. at least you girls sound out... i would know what to do.. n learn from you girls so that i can be a better person too... dun be afraid of me.. i wont eat you girls up ok？i want to be true frenz with you girls... and not just PLAYMATES... but if u want to just the the 'playmates' relationship with me... i dun mind at all =) when FUN times come.. we will always hang out. so JUST LET ME KNOW k? =)

ABOUT BUSINESS and LIFE LECTURE

(if you dun like this dun read it.. and really mean it.. DONT READ!!!!!!!!)

when i was 11years old....my elder brother was a PRO in basketball (to me..he is)

i fell in love with basketball too ever since then... when just a 141cm girl at tat time..

who is going to take me seriously in this sport??? a shorty vs basketball?? (are you kidding me)my legs were shorter than any other players.. my stamina was worst than other players.. my movement and reaction was slower than others...

i remember my brother telling :" if you adi realise you have shorter legs, run twice faster to keep up with those longer legs, if you know stamina and reaction is slower TRAIN twice harder than any other players just to keep up with them, but if you wanna be better any 1 of them, you must train yourself up 3 to 4 more times harder and more than any other players."

he was right, until now i still remember what he said.

Just in life, there is no 'free lunch' even there is.... how much luck do you want to rely on to get it?? even you have the luck?? how many others would have the same too?? and how are you going to fight it over with them or are you generous enough to SHARE it with' em??

thus, for me... i m not as rich as others, but in order to live the same kind of lifestyle to relax and enjoy, i m work twice time harder to earn that life style, but i know if i would want to live a even better life and enjoy even more than any others of the same age gap i m in.. i would have to be 3 or 4 or even more times hardworking and daring to do so.

everything might be just a dream for me now.. but i m sure i would achieved it.

i rmb those who laughed at me during basketball long ago b4 but after just 3years who is the one laughing back at you now.

so now this is my future and business... its not just a sport, but i know i can achieved it!