unfinished missions:
1) clean up my messy bedroom
2) wash my dirty car
3) keeping up with my web design class assignment (still in the progress of doing)
4) had some "me" time to read a few pages of book, not any assignment related book, just a book for leissure (reading a few pages = reading a zillion books to me, i have a few mins to just focus in that few pages is truly GREAT for me) haha..
i m so glad that i could accomplish so many things in just this few weeks.
it is truly grateful to always be occupied and non-stop moving forward for more achievements.
i m thankful that god gave me the strength to keep me moving forward mentally from the insight of my soul and mind
*spending a few twist and swirl around the "world" i understand more, and god has taught me everything happens for a reason. & when god turns your world upside down, He just wants u to learn how to live right side up again.*
i m thankful that my parents both mom and dad gave me the greatest love to make sure i grown up healthy and perfectly (as in din kena kitnap, robbed, malnutrition, lack of love and etc)
*after spending a few months of teaching kids tuition and watching how my younger cousins grow up process.. HAHA.. i felt it was so DAM hard!!!!!!!!! to keep TROUBLE away from kids, my parents were able to keep all dangers and trouble away from the 3 of us, is really powerful! xD hehehe... for that i love them even more, looking at them grow old and some times get sick, makes my heartache but builts my motivation to be a better person even stronger because i wan to be able to love them and take care them back*
i m thankful for my siblings, for the typical fighting get still making up childhood memories which made some of the parts of me today. at least I M NORMAL and not like some others. xD
Even though its so happy that we had all grown up and do not have to share the same room with each other again, i kinda miss you both. As we spend lesser time with each other now =( especially you my brother! hmm maybe that's life.
I m thankful to all my cousins and relatives too. They too shaped me into who i m today, with those sweet memories in Tapah nor JB, or vacation all around msia. Those weekends of gathering, from masak masak to cycling to computer games to ps2 to shopping together now contribute to all my colourful years in this BIG family. We always would not let each other go down to the 'hell road' as we wud always pull each other back up to the right path and encourage each other til then end! hehe... i love you guys too =)
Besides that, this part is always the part i mention which is... My friends.
You all had been the most important part in my life as i m easily influenced by you guys more than anyone.
To those who hurt and look down on me once. i thank you for doing it as you made me stronger to face harder challenges and move through tougher obstacles in life. THE Pain you guys once pierce and stab through my body, made everything in my life now easier as NO PAIN NO GAIN, everything now seems much more easier as it just 'sap sap water' to me already after you all hurt me. Those experience and lessons i learn, shaped me into a smarter yet kinder person as i learn not be a worse person like you all.
To those who thinks i m just Plain Stupid and loves to take advantages from me. You taught me how to handle ppl like you every time you do it to me. Its just like a online game that both you and I continuously level up our power on how to defend and attack. You guys shape my thinking in crisis management and skills in jerks distinguishing. Its certainly a game as stressed up as dota, as challenging yet knowledgeable as SODUKU. Keep it UP ya, i will be prepare to learn as after every GAME OVER, I still get another chance to beat you again.
To those who had brought me knowledge and directed me into the right paths. I have all my respect for you as you taught me things that i would have overlooked. Such as the 2 guys that intro me into reading books. It really hard to get me to read books you know, macam paksa me jiak sai like tat.. but both of them so geng, now you know why i respect them so much.
The 1st one was "Mr Ice Lemon Tea" - you intro "Poor Daddy , Rich Daddy" to me which made me built my interest on how to manage time and finance. It lead me into the path of being more mature in this field than others from my age when i was just only 14.
The 2nd one is Mr Vanness Fan - you introduce me this author by the name of 戴晨志．Just the name of this author which is labelled across few dozen books taught me more than i could even digest nowadays.
of coz not only the both of them had a whole lot of respect from me, all of those around me including some i had even lost contact with, you all taught me valuable lessons in Life as i learn from you guys everyday, every hour and every moment. The way i talk, think, act, accomplish things is learnt from every one of your bits n parts behavior and actions. =)
To those friend who love me unconditionally and never left me alone.
You are the ones who picked me up when i m at the lowest of my sorrow.
You are the ones who set my head straight and hold my hands and walk along with me when i often get lost in life.
You are the ones who take notice of my careless behavior and nags me even though you know i would forget it eventually and still help me 'zap shao mei' even though i m so forgetful to say thank you.
You are the ones who let me bully you when my devil eager was UP but you just stood still.
You are the ones who pick up the things i dropped or left back and return it to me, example MY SMILE and Laughters. =)
You are the ones made my tears roll in between my eyes but i dare not to even shed even 1 single drop a tears as i know you wud be sad if you thought i was sad.
You are the ones that in my phone list which normally each lonesome night my fingers will flick across but dare not to hit the button "dial"
You are the ones that I would love to plan your birthdays for and vise versal.
You are the ones that is not my bfs but i would love to hug.
You are the ones who i will die for just for your safety just under the rank of "family" in my heart.
You are the ones that taught me nothing is too hard to walk through, if you were just by my side.
You are the ones that i would always remember what we been through even after so many years. Every SINGLE BIT including arguements and embrassing moments! teehee =p
You are the ones who i wished that i would die earlier becoz until now you never taught me how to handle the feelings of "leaving you forever" as you are the ones that never left me.
As i do not know and could not even bare to think of pain if i had lost anyone of you.
Thus, you are the one i would yell and threaten that if any one of you think of committing suicide, i would jump into hell just to pull you back up to earth to torture you to live with ME this devil forever!
You are the ones who slashes through my heart if i found out you are doing some SHIT to hurt yourself. (including family/cousins)
You are the ones that could not imagine how important by "just being Nicky Kong Sinn Loo" is for me.
